23-Year-Old Girl Loses Virginity For Getting A Project
If I could turn back the clock and rewind this event then it would not exist anymore. But I can change neither the past nor this event. After the oral sex session with my brother , I felt so guilty that I sometimes thought of killing myself for having done something which felt wrong. But it didn’t feel wrong at that time. I still ask myself these questions – Was it just out of lust and body wants? How could I ever let my body decide over my emotions? Did I love him more than just the body? I could not even reason to myself or even justify what took place that day. For about a month, interaction with my brother was very little even though he approached me for a kiss, touch and much more. But I ignored. Ignorance upon ignorance, he gave up and we started talking normally like we used to before he turned 19. Now coming back to the story, I wanted to escape from myself for the sin I had done. For that, I started working more than I had to. I spent a lot of time in the office and would come back home late. I would seek every excuse to stay away from my brother as much as possible. That all resulted in an impression upon my boss. My boss offered me to present our project to a reputable client and he said, “I trust you with this. I am sure you will do your best to get this deal and for sure, you will be rewarded as well.” I was excited to receive such an offer and appreciation. And sometimes, I even thanked myself for doing things with my brother and felt guilty later. It was one of the few times when I wasn’t feeling shit during work. I started preparing PPTs and researched about the project as well as the client. The day finally came. I was dressed properly in business formal and have been reciting details about the project in my head since last night. Since I had no prior experience in dealing with a client, I was worried. But somehow I could pretend to be confident. I wore a black trouser which was hugging my skin and was showing my figure. Well, I did not have a great figure but I managed to achieve a good fit body by exercising regularly. I reached the meeting room 15 minutes earlier than decided. My palms were sweaty and even under the air-condition at 20-degree Celsius, I was feeling the heat bursting inside me. I managed to stay stable in the seat until they came. A few minutes later, three people came inside the meeting room. I wiped my hands quickly on pants and greeted them with a smile and a good morning. All three of them introduced themselves with their name and designation in their company. The three men were Ankit, Vikas, and Prathmesh. Vikas, about 42 years old, was the senior most and slightly fat at the stomach. Ankit was the junior most of three and was in his mid 20’s. He looked like he regularly went to the gym. Prathmesh was old as much as Vikas but looked like he worked out a lot to stay in shape. I switched on the projector and started presenting the project. Ankit was the most curious one and was asking meaningful questions about the project. The other two asked a few questions and just before the meeting was about to be over, the projector suddenly shut down. I got nervous and it started showing on my face. My ears became red and my face became pale. I did all possible to make the projector work but it did not. I broke into tears and sat down on the chair. It was my opportunity to prove my worth as an employee and also to earn rewards but it all seemed to fade away at that moment. Ankit and Prathmesh came close, sat next to me and touched my cheeks to wipe out tears. I was stunned by this approach. Vikas came right behind me and said, “It’s okay if you lose this project it’s okay. Nothing is going to happen.” I said, “I am sorry sir, but I was the youngest to be selected to present to a client.” I was 23 at that time and others who mostly proposed the project to the clients were in their 30’s. Vikas rubbed his hands on my shoulder and it felt he was slowly moving towards my boobs. But he removed his hand and said, “Maybe you could show this presentation again before we leave from here.” I said, “Thanks sir, I am really glad. Can we schedule a meeting sometime today?” Vikas replied with his dirty touch to my shoulder, “Ankit lives here a few kilometers away. We are free after 7 pm and we have to catch a flight at 12 pm tomorrow. So, you can come at 7 pm today.” I realized, his voice was much softer than earlier and knew in that second what his desire was. I was a bit troubled about their thoughts and I immediately wanted to leave. When I stood up to leave, Vikas handed me his card and said, “If you want to succeed in getting this deal, it would be our pleasure to help you in doing that.” I left the room immediately and went to my cabin, drank a lot of water and sat there for an hour. It was almost noon when I decided to leave for home. It took half an hour to reach home and I stayed on my bed, trying to sleep for about an hour. Out of the blue, I started thinking about what I and my brother did and I felt so guilty that I could rip my skin off of this body. I thought, if that didn’t felt wrong then this shouldn’t feel wrong too. Immediately, I called Vikas that I would be arriving at seven. I slept for an hour and I woke up by Vikas’s call. I picked up and he instructed me to bring four sets of dress. 1. Saree with a matching blouse. 2. Crop top with a skirt. 3. Sleeveless top and trouser 4. Whatever I was comfortable in (so I picked jeans and a top). I replied with acknowledgment and I went straight to the bathroom to take a bath. I showered for an hour or so, I lost time and just felt confused about whether to feel guilty about this or not. Then I came out of the bathroom, wore a red and blue saree with a bluish blouse and inner garments. I sat there on my bed with second thoughts about this. As I never had sex before, I was scared and the thought of being with three guys made it even more confusing in my head.